In lieu of Halloween approaching next week, I decided to write about a subject with the same atmosphere. That being something that might come as a shock to some about myself.
Despite my happy and colorful personality, I am quite drawn to dark things. This could be anything from simply depressing music to horror movies to drama/crime tv shows. Something is creepy/supernatural-ish/scary/sad? Well come on in, that’s right up my alley.
That’s probably why Halloween is one of my favorite times of the year. It encompasses every dark thing possible and sticks a pretty bow on it. The morbid kid in myself is in heaven the whole month of October. Does that make me strange? Most likely.
It’s funny because my step-dad is the complete opposite of me. I’m perfectly comfortable watching shows that deal with topics of a darker nature and he actively avoids them. For instance, he was watching The Walking Dead with me and the whole time he ranted about how that stuff shouldn’t be on television, how it’s just wrong, and desensitizes you. Meanwhile, I’m just sitting there like, “Dude, what’s the big deal? It’s fake – not real.” I understand the concern about showing darker matters on television and what people are afraid it could cause. I’m completely opposed to the method of sheltering one’s self and purposely being ignorant towards them, though. Life isn’t only sunshine and happiness, it’s a whole spectrum of colors & shades. Most of the time those colors are black and gray. It’ s more damaging to only allow things drenched in rainbows and topped with fucking sprinkles. Our world isn’t some Lisa Frank folder, honey.
So what are some of my favorite dark things?
One of my longtime interests is my love of witches! I grew up in a time dominated by witchcraft in mainstream media. You had your Sabrina the Teenage Witch, Charmed, Hocus Pocus, Practical Magic, The Craft, Halloweentown, Harry Potter, Buffy, etc. The 90’s/2000’s were a goldmine for me! While everyone else always argues about vampires vs. werewolves, I just sit back and say, “witches.” They are literally the coolest and most powerful supernatural beings, who needs those loser vampires? Witches can light them on fire with their minds. Definitely the HBICs of the supernatural community. Mostly, I just wanted to be a witch and go to Hogwarts as a kid. (Ravenclaw pride!)
Another favorite of mine is my love of southern gothic music. The songs capture such a mood and it’s usually quite heavy. They have such a particular sound and presence about them. Here’s a playlist if you’re interested in listening to some:
I have a lot more that I love too, but those are just a couple examples. My fascination in the dark will probably never go away and frankly I’m okay with that. I’m still a happy person on a day-to-day basis and that acceptance of the gray doesn’t affect my life.
I do love my black clothes though…